Crazy tragic sometimes almost magic awful beautiful life.

Awe if that song doesn't just say it all....Man this life we live has SO many ups and downs yet it really is a beautiful life.
Today has really been one of those kinda days. That lifts your spirit because you have such a great time and your on top of the world but also keeps you right there on earth with humbling things that are so out of your control.

Reaction to action mode. This bewilders me. Some people have the craziest reaction time from when something happens and stepping up and taking control where they need to. Like for instance I saw a group of three men step up almost instantly in a place where fear and tragedy were running wild. There was a 5 car pile up on one of the roads near base, and within I'd say 3 mins these mean were out there. They stepped up and starting conducting traffic around the wreck that had demobilized the entire flow as it covered both lanes. And due to their amazing ability to go from reacting to what just happened and putting into action the next step to prevent further problems.
Another situation like this was told to me today also from my parents. They saw a car go over a guard rail in the mountains and roll down to the river below. And apparently it only took a few seconds for my dad to pull the car over, jump out of the vehicle and be storming down the embankment to help in anyway he could. Its amazing that people just have that reaction time that makes all the difference.

Now for the more fun part of the day. The theme for my day was pirates obsessive lol. For those of you who didn't know the next Pirates of the Caribbean movie is being filmed right now in multiple locations around the island. And my friend and I were able to get pretty close and snap a few photos of the Black Pearl that is now Queen Anne's Revenge for this new film!! Than we drove to the other side of the island and tried to catch some of the stars but the security there was kinda rude and not very friendly so we ended up just driving by the camera's and stuff a few times. But we really wanna go to the next place they are filming so hopefully times workout and we can make it :D

The Husband is starting to get on a working routine. He is gonna be working nights so hopefully that will make it so we are able to talk easier. Although the Internet on his Fob is very shitty and thus he isn't going to waste the money on purchasing it so we are only talking every 3 days or so and just on facebook when he is able to make it to the MWR. This makes it a little harder but I understand that the situation isn't gonna be exactly ideal and we are gonna make it work for us!! I cant wait until he gets my first package!

Prayers going out to the wife who was in the car that rolled down the river, as she deals with the hard time of her husband passing, prayers with all the people who were involved in the car accident, Prayers with Julie as she fights through the sickness of her pregnancy, and prayers to everyone else who is having a hard time may gods eyes be watching you carefully!

Keeping really busy

Wow over a week down, Tuesday has already came and went!!!

I have been trying to keep myself very busy and its amazing how well that keeps your mind off of things. I want people to know that although I seem to be strong that is not because I have no emotions nor im not hurting cuz I do but I realize that there is no point in getting myself worked up cuz he's still gonna be gone. And he is gone for a good reason so you just gotta suck it up and go.

So I had made a budget with Dustin before he left, we forgot to calculate in his Care packages so I ended up spending quite a bit and havent even paid for postage yet...Should be interesting thats for sure...I hope he can accept my apology cuz next pay check I wont be spend Near as much.

Well the 4th of July is quite a shindig here on post, with games, food, entertainment, drawings, and plenty of sun to go around. Prices ran a little high tho so I decided not to stick around too much. Than a group of us headed over to Wainae to Celebrate and bbq!! Fun was had by all tho the firework show wasnt very impressive.

Than Monday my life got a little bit more entertaining to say the least. I was on my way to pick up my brother in law and his wife from the airport. And on my way to my car my neighbors dog decided it wanted to see how I tasted. Ripped my shorts, punctured my leg in 2 spots and left one helluva bruise around it. So I have spent my fair share of time at the ACC and with the Mp's getting the report filed. Has kept me on my toes all day.

Also got Pedicures with my friends today which was by far what I needed been a stressful week already and its only tuesday. Oh and Huck has Roll over down good now :D

I miss Dustin cant wait til he has better internet and can talk to me fore more than 20 mins should be soon!!!

Sabrina

Let the time fly by.

Busy Busy Busy! That's what I wanted this first few days and boy oh boy has that been what I got!!! And it is indeed a great thing and I hope to keep this pace up through out the whole time! I love helping out my friends!! And we have had some good story telling time lately! Besides Lack of sleep all has been going well! Was even excited to finally get my first call from Dustin which was totally a day maker!!

The next few days are alot more low key just pretty much me time, I'm gonna get my stuff together for Dustin's care package, and catch up on the zzz's Ive been missing out on. Also plan to do some grocery shopping, and cleaning!! But mostly alot of time will be spent with my little battle buddy trying to get him on a routine so that we can go the ENTIRE year with out any accidents. He has only peed in the house 1 time since Dustin left and that's because, the people were painting the building right by our door so we couldn't leave. And well he couldn't hold it in.

Not alot been going on just keeping everyone updated...Dustin is safe but busy so wont be online much for a while and only gets 20 mins worth of phone calls a day. No one knows his mailing address yet, but when I know I'll let you know!!

Sabrina!

P.s to all my army wives I LOVE YOU!!!!

Learning to Cope

They say that the day he leaves is the hardest. But as today came around, I'm beginning to question that concept. Although, yes It was a hard time and seeing his face walk onto that bus, knowing I wouldn't be in his arms for a year was heart breaking and really the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Today the reality of that hits home.

I woke up this morning after a rough night of tear streaked cheeks, and finally passing out on his side of the bed cuddling with his pillow. And I first thought awe he didn't say bye before pt. Oh well I'll get up and be ready to take a shower with him afterwards. A little while passed and I realized....He wont be walking back through that door today.

These simple things sadden me. But good news I have been able to hear from him on every step of his travel. And you know with him gone the countdown til he is back is getting smaller every second....and who wouldn't like knowing that? "Missing someone gets easier everyday because though he is further from the last time you saw him, he is also closer til the next time."

The best thing that's gonna get me through this is to break up the time, there are 4 things that will be doing that for me. And I'm challenging myself to count down to those things rather than looking at the time as a whole. In Sept, I have friends coming for their b-day, than sometime after that Dustin will have R&r, and Than my sister and mother are coming out in March. And in the beginning of June my Cousin is going to make it out. So with the only a few months in between each event it makes the total count down seem so much less.

Hey best part of all is remind myself everyday that, Dustin is safe, he is gonna be in one of the best FOBS over there, he'll have Internet. We will be able to talk almost everyday when he isn't working :D Plus I finally get to make all the Awesome care packages I have been looking forward to. And get to receive letters in the mail ALL the time from him that's gonna be awesome.

So the challenge begins, it will challenge our faith, our relationship, our friendship, our patience, and our courage. But if there is one thing being an army wive and girlfriend to Dustin has shown, its that we truly are in love and this little task will not phase us one bit. Nothing we haven't had to do before.

Sabrina

P.s. cherish all the small things they do. Like I woke up today expecting to have to do dishes before breakfast, and found the dishwasher was full of clean dishes :D made my day! He had started it before we left for formation yesterday!!

Army Proud

Today was the day for the deployment ceremony. And nothing makes an army wife more proud of her husband than seeing him in formation, in uniform with all the men who are willing to risk their lives to save his. When you see an entire brigade standing at attention it makes you feel very safe.

As the bugle calls to announce the presentation of the colors and the playing of the national anthem, it sends shivers down my spine as now, more than ever those words echo through me, and show just what my husband is out there standing so proudly for.

This ceremony made me realise even more that his job is important. Although in my selfish world I think he shouldn't be deploying and I should be able to keep my husband at my side, I can see that what he is fighting for is not a war but his pride in this great nation, and his pride in his family and friends. So although the ceremony made the fact he is leaving ever so soon sink in even more I know it has a good purpose.

As I looked around me while sitting in the bleachers, I saw all the wives, and kids that are my army family and never have I felt so sure that, I can make it through this year. I know that I have amazing friends who will be there with me til the end. We will feed off of each others strengths, and hold each other up during our times of weakness. And with my family so far away, its great to know that I have my own hand picked and amazing family still surrounding me.

So deployment this is what I have to say "BRING IT ON" I know I may be sad, happy, and terrified by you but I know that I'm better than you and I will make it through this without any problems. Because if there is one thing I learned from the Army its that "I AM ARMY STRONG"!!

Coming soon!!

I cant belive how fast leave went. I swear it feels like we were just packing full of excitement for the two weeks away, and now we are already back doing the final count down before he leaves. And yes he does leave soon, VERY soon(no I wont tell you the date). As we spend the little time we have together it makes me very proud to have such a strong husband. I know that he is just as scared as I am to be so far away for so long but he doesnt show it. He knows that he has to be strong for me cuz I'm always on the edge of a total breakdown. We just got to remember to use what time we do have left in each others arms just remembering all the good times. Im scared for him to leave but 12 months can be a very short time if we have a good attitude about it. Ill be very busy the whole time with Frg, Dr Appointments, and hopefully eventually getting a decent job.